This is my "happy place"

1) Buying Gavin stuff (food, clothes, toys, books, etc)
2) Being out with my family
3) Chatting with close friends
4) Trying new restaurants
5) Reading interesting books
6) Testing cosmetics
7) Sinigang
8) Nice big airports
9) Window shopping at the malls abroad
10) Worth-the-price bags
11) Killer footwear
12) Traveling
13) Staying at home
14) Watching movies with Gavin
15) Compiling pictures

I'm back training a class after almost a year of being out of the classroom. It's both exhilarating and terrifying at the same time! I'm slowly trying to get back into my game though. Let's hope it works out.

Wish me luck..

It's the hardest thing to want everything and nothing at the same time. Actually it's the worst feeling in the world. It kills because there's almost nothing you can do about it. It's like seeing something happen in front of you and not doing anything about it because you just can't.

The near-perfect life... damn, who wouldn’t want this.

Being a single mother, I can’t help but wish for that "movie life" for my family. This dream carries over not just for my beautiful baby boy but for my wonderful parents as well who have done absolutely everything in their power in order for me to have that near-perfect life.

I know if I really look at it, I do somewhat have that movie life now, and I shouldn’t even be complaining. As compared to others, I’d say that my son had a better life, and a chance for a better future. Still, being a person who’s used to having the best, I can't help but want more for him.

My parents have given me more than what I need in order to make it in this world. I'd like to think that despite all the crap that I've put them through, they are still proud of what I've accomplished. They may not be proud of what I've done in the past, but in all honesty I believe that they are proud of what I'm trying to make out of my life now.

I never thought that I'd be a single mother. I always thought that I would indeed have that near-perfect movie life with a gorgeous, hard-working husband and a gorgeous mansion for a house... and to top it all off, the fact that I would have a gorgeous wedding to start it all.

A lot has happened to me this year that made me rethink a lot of things. (*sigh* and for some reason, at 4:45am I decide to write it all before I forget my thoughts) First of all, my family is healthy so that's a great great thing! If anything, that's the biggest thing I'm most thankful for. My parents are healthier than most people their age and they are strong in every aspect. Next, my son is also healthy and his development is just phenomenal. God has indeed been good. See, I really shoudln't complain about too many things (although I do), because the more important things in my life such as my family and my work are stable. I am happy, I know I am. I live a good life, I have support and love everywhere, and maybe if I keep at it, it'll get even better.

Still, I want more than this. Don't get me wrong, I am so grateful and I am beyond content. But I just want something more for us...

For those of you who are fluent in Spanish, I apologize upfront for the grammatical errors. (I assure you I did not intentionally mean to lambast the Spanish language.)

Hoy era un dia de los muchos de "el extremo". Realize mucho hoy. Hizo que piensa... A lot.

Ahora es un libro cerrado. As it should have been ages ago. Es divertido como la vida da vuelta alrededor cuando usted lo menos lo cuenta con. Algo sucede y el los cambios justos todo. El daños justos porque usted no lo ve el venir a veces. Cuando golpea, realmente golpea dificilmente. Nunca lo vi el venir.

Again, ahora es un libro cerrado. Por siempre...

El extremo.

Despite my complaints.. this is probably the coolest thing I have ever owned. 30GB of anything I want imaginable.. it's got my de-stressing, chillaxin' music and my son's pictures. I call it THE coolest mommy gadget. It even stores home videos.

Apple totally rocks!

I love this because it lets me do anything I want. Next to my cellphone (which is my lifeline), this is definetely the next thing I can't live without. (It's my 2nd lifeline - see now where would I store my pictures?!)

Portability is the bomb baby!

I'm not too much of a coffee drinker though I love it so much. (Well that's how I see myself anyway.) I've never really understood why people would "die" (so to speak) for Starbucks coffee.. For me, coffee was just coffee. Folgers, Starbucks, Maxwell House, Nescafe, hell even Blend 45.. they all tasted the same to me.

Recently though, I've started to appreciate the taste of Starbucks coffee. It started because everyone had to start collecting those damn stickers for the Starbucks planner. Last Christmas I think I bought coffee every other day just so I could get that planner.

I even got my dad buying coffee every so often just so I could finish the stamper.. hehehe, not that he minded anyway (my dad loves coffee).

Starbucks once in a while is cool.. I like I like!

These pictures were taken a few Sundays ago at Greenbelt. Gavin wanted ice cream and for some reason they did away with the more reasonably priced ice cream parlors at Greenbelt, so I had no choice but to buy him what could possibly be the most expensive vanilla with cookies ice cream here in Manila. A few minutes after, I cringed becuase I remembered that Haagen Daz was downstairs.. Believe it or not, it would have cost less.

It's my dad's birthday today and last night we celebrated his birthday dinner at Edsa Shangri-la Hotel at Heat. I absolutely love this hotel, especially now after the renovation. It's more of a resort now I think. (Well, it looks like one..) Unlike the hotels in Makati, this one has more of a "family-like" atmosphere to it. While you will find the usual business people milling about, there are a lot of children around too. I like it a lot too because Gavin likes it. He's always running around and he just loves it because there are other children that he can play with.

My mom and I especially like The Bakeshop at the hotel, and last night I had to make a quick stop because I had to buy Jenny a cake for her birthday. They had the usual stuff.. I've always wanted to try their white chocolate with Tabasco and last night I decided to go for it.

Wrong move man.. I didn't especially enjoy it. I did enjoy though the mocha chocolate and the milk chocolate.

Oh well, just wanted to share my experience with Edsa Shangri-la's Tabasco White Chocolate.

I was beyond ecstatic yesterday when I finally got my new 30GB iPod Video...

Today I'm just downright pissed.

It's 2am and I'm trying to move the songs on my old mini iPod to my new one and i can't figure it out! I've been everywhere, online, manuals, etc. It just can't be done! ARGH! Or it's just hard to figure out and I'm losing my patience already...

Darn it.

I am ecstatic nonetheless because I was able to move my favorite photos in already so that's kinda cool.

I'll figure it out eventually I know.