I love architecture! I love anything that has to do with it, which explained my awe for most of the structures around when I was in Chicago early this year. I like urban and concrete jungles.. There's a certain beauty to them that I consider to be art. I also really like residential spaces. I love looking at houses! It's a pastime.. that and interior design (which I've been told I can get pretty good at).

I don't know how many times I've blogged about storms and how I either love it (at the time) or hate it, but I know I have blogged about it numerous times.. well, this will be another one of those times.

This needs no introduction.

Every woman salivates at the thought of retail therapy to get over either a break up, or a stressful week/month at work. I admittedly, am one with the female race when it comes to retail therapy. I in fact embrace every chance at it with open arms.

With thoughts of my upcoming trip to the US, and sinful thoughts and mental images of the things I want from Margot's In Style magazine, I have now decided to start planning for my upcoming retail therapy in the US. (It keeps me up honestly.)

Furthermore, Gavin has now started school, and I think of that as a major milestone in my life. Not only that, he's only 3 (turning 4 in July), and he's already been accepted in Kindergarten 1 (5 year old level) because he's exceptionally smart (ahem ahem.. smart boy = smart mom). So I think I need to reward myself for that. I have a 3 year old who can carry on a conversation like he was a 6 year old, who can do simple addition and subtraction, who has already been to 3 countries, and who can already understand 3 languages. So yeah, I think my boy and I deserve a treat for that.

I'm counting the days now.

(Those letters, my dear friends stand for "favorite time of the day".)

So it's my favorite time of the day now.. it's dusk. The weather's been really nice today. I left work at around 5am, had breakfast with a friend, and then headed home right after that. I noticed that the weather was cooler than usual this morning, and I wondered why. At around 11am I got my answer.. it started to rain.

I slept well because the sound of the rain lulled me to sleep deeper. It was awesome, I needed that deep sleep. I got up a bit earlier though because of the thunder. It was all good though, I hauled myself out of bed because I had to do some work. The past few days had been a bit crazy. I wasn't able to catch up on my emails because I'd been in and out of meetings.

I find that I can be a lot more productive for some reason when I work from home. I know that concept totally kills the whole quality time with the family thing, and I'm guilty now that I think about it. But I don't know, there's a certain peace that I get when I plug in from home. I guess it's because I know that eventhough I'm working, my son is just nearby and within reach, and sometimes hearing his mad outbursts or ear-splitting shrieks is comforting.

I was able to get a lot done, and look.. I even had time to blog.

Maybe it's the weather.

Excited..

• It's Gavin's first day of regular school today (as compared to the summer program I enrolled him in just recently)! Wow, that's definetely another milestone for me! I have mixed emotions about it all. I'm happy, but sad at the same time, and a bit apprehensive because I don't know if I'll end up crying or what. Damn.. school.. How time flies. Where did it all go? Where have I been?

Annoyed..

• Well with myself anyway. I just opened up my task list for work and realized I had missed 3 tasks that I was supposed to close last week, but for some reason didn't do. Damnit! I hate it when I do that. I hate it when I end up forgetting to close work-related tasks. Argh!

Happy..

• My lolas' home! She's finally home! It's been an extremely stressful past few days because I was worried as hell about my lola. She's been sick lately as I had mentioned, and it got quite scary for a while back there, but she is home now. Well.. she's very weak, but I admire her fighting spirit and I love the fact that pulled through still out of this one. She'll live to be a 100 I tell you. You wait and see..

Numb..

• I'm a big advocate of the whole "no one else can motivate you but yourself" statement. I believe that we're each driven by a personal "something" (and that can mean anything), and that "something" - someone/someplace/goal/dream/ambition/want/need, or what have you is our driving force behind all our actions and decisions. And it's pretty plain and simple that given all that, the lack of action or decision due to demotivation (and drive) stems from the fact that you must not have really wanted it at all to begin with.

Hungry..

• I had stale kettle corn just earlier when I got up. But now I want real food. I'm hungry.. an iced tall non fat caramel macchiatto would so do right now. Or some ice cream.. yum. One of the things I'd like to do before I die is take up culinary arts. It would be so cool to cook for a living. I love food, and I know I cook well because I enjoy everything about food. Just imagine if I could get paid for it as well. Hmm..

Irritated..

• I gained weight! It's pissing me off because it's been so inconsistent. God why can't my weight just stabilize! Ugh..

Looking forward to..

• My US trip sometime in July. I need to fly out to the US with my boss sometime in July for a few days for a meeting and a site tour of one of the clients we work with. I super love air trips. Wouldn't mind the shopping as well to be honest. I do need to pick up a few things.

Waiting..

• In vain. Always.

Drama Queen.

God, what I'd give to be in that spot right now (roll eyes here). I expect it must be liberating to play the part, well any part I guess, but no.. playing the victim would be the greatest role. Ever.

Jetting off to far off places to "heal" and to distance yourself, cutting off all lines of communication, severing all ties.. it's so glamorous, and oh so saintly. You are indeed THE hero.

You do not exist to me. You are irrelevant. You are hilarious because you seek the attention you once had.

Sticks and stones WILL break your bones, but YOUR words will never hurt me.

I'm so uber popular, it's almost shameful.

I've been so tired the past few days and weeks - both physically and mentally. For some reason, at the end of each week (lately anyway), I find myself so exhausted that I end up sleeping for more than 10 hours.. but then I wake up still with that exhausted feeling. It's pure agony. That's why this 3 day weekend was something that I was looking forward to, and was anticipating to be something close to nirvana even. Or so I thought.

Yesterday morning, I had gotten word that my lola (Filipino for "grandmother") was very sick. I got the call in the morning and that pretty much set off my day in the worst way. I was worried sick, stressed beyond anything and I felt even more tired. I hate that feeling. I couldn't sleep, and I would wake up restless and cranky. Also, apart from my lola's condition, I had a lot of things on my mind and that was adding up to it.

I got up just a few minutes ago after a nap (another one), but it was unlike any nap that I've had (or full night/day sleep) for the longest time. I actually had a good dream, and I woke up with the strangest feeling of peace. I wasn't cranky or restless at all. It was a good dream, a weird one yes, but a good one nonetheless. I haven't had a good dream like that in ages.

Peace.. what a truly fabulous feeling.

Nope, that is not one of my videos playing.

Yep, that is embedded music.

(I've always been a fan of ambient world music.. it relaxes me)

And yeah, you should listen to the entire song.

(I'll change the music based on my mood.)

And right now, it's this.

(This playlist is also on my Multiply page.)

I love long weekends! I don't get a lot of it, so I relish it when I do get it. The past 2 days have been absolutely wonderful and I'm salivating at the fact that I get 1 more day to actually rest.

So what have I been doing? I've been an absolute sloth.. I spent almost 80% of my Saturday and Sunday in bed sleeping and catching up on some lost Zz's time. I spent some time with Gavin last Saturday as well which we both really enjoyed, we went to watch Kung Fu Panda, did a bit of shopping, and also burned a bit of time at Timezone. (Sniff sniff, I really do have a big kid now.)

Saturday night was fun too.. I think I totally overdid the whole alcohol thing (did the whole walk of shame thing at around 4:30am), and I think I ate a little bit too much for my tummy's liking but hey, the music was good, the bass was earth shattering (which is how it should be), the drinks went down smooth, and the company was good too. I had a LOT on my mind and I welcomed the fact that a little intoxication (or a lot) eased that up a bit.

I am looking forward to my 1 more day of solitude and relaxation. Not even a few unwanted calls from the uneducated, unloved, and total lack of breeding neanderthal folk from that "place" can get me down. A massage would do at this point I think..

Yipee!

Celtic Monkeys.. cute (scary).

A woman needs a reason to cheat, a man just needs a woman.

Indeed.

I hate getting disappointed, and I guess you can say it takes a lot to really get me to that point. I'm usually the one who "understands" all the time, the one who will be "nice" to people eventhough they've done wrong..

Lying would be considered a huge disappointment for me. Especially if I catch someone doing it to me more than once. White lies, black lies, minor exxagerations, or in some cases major info omissions.. they're all effing lies.

It's offensive, it's insulting, it's degrading, and most of all, it's disrespectful to me.

Yeah?

Bloggerhea: defined (by another blogger) as the urge to blog even when you don't really have anything interesting to blog about.

So with that definition in mind, I came up with my own terminology.

Bloggerhea Randomitis: defined (in the book by Heidi) as the urge to blog even when I don't really have just 1 interesting topic to blog about, and in place of just writing absolute BS for no reason at all, just writing totally random thoughts and/or feelings that I am thinking/feeling at the moment.

1. I'm eating Meiji Galbo chocolates now. I'm totally addicted to Japanese chocolates at the moment, and earlier at the grocery, I ended up buying one too many packs of these addicting Galbo chocolates. Damn it, there goes the damn diet.

2. Now both Oli and Agnes are in Australia, and I am left all alone here (sniffle sniffle sniffle). So that's the both of them there, plus J.. sigh.

3. It rained earlier so it's effing humid. It feels like all the heat from the ground suddenly decided to steam out and attempt to make people feel "warm".

4. I missed Iron Man on the big screen. I'll probably get it on DVD this week so I can watch it (hehe).

5. I've decided that I don't like the Crocs shoes at all. I actually own a pair of ballerina flats (prima) by Crocs, but they're not too comfy at all. It was a waste of money.

6. I think I'll try my hand at designing t-shirts. I've done the accessory and bag design, so I think I want to do shirts next.

7. I want a black Macbook. The white one I have is getting annoying.. with how I work, and with the amount of data I have in it, it's just silly to keep on operating off it. It's starting to hang, and so I need a new one.

8. God, Gavin turns 4 this year.. ARGH! Where has the time gone?!

9. I STILL feel fat.

10. I think I want to go down and get ice cream. But then again, I already had chocolates so I think I better forget that idea.

11. I really enjoyed my Saturday night. There's nothing like having a relaxing dinner amongst old friends, then cocktails al fresco while listening to live acoustic bands, and then finally having hard core cocktails while gyrating to loud bassy-in-your-face music at a club. Nice..

12. I forgot the password to one of my email accounts. And I'm annoyed because I just changed it yesterday. Life would be less complicated if I didn't have to worry about emails and passwords, and actually remembering them. Sigh..

13. The VPN to get to my office emails isn't working and I'm not appreciating the fact that I'm not getting information regarding work whenever I need it, when I'm not physically at the office.

14. I'm getting sleepy. I had a huge dinner and I'm full.

15. I hope this week turns out to be better than last week.