Today I lost a friend.

I'm not exactly sure how I feel about it. Shocked.. Sad.. Numb.. Calm.. Guilty. I don't really know.

I'd like to think that I deal with loss a lot better than most. Not that it makes me a better or a bigger person though. I just don't have a choice most of the time.. I guess we all don't. We just deal with it as it comes with the hope that one day it will get better.